Am I really that bad of a person?

Warning Rant ahead!

Well, im fucked. My life is falling apart! Family issues, grades, college problems, might go back to my personal hell this summer (Why can't succubusses be there ) unsympathatic parents, i NEVER GET A BREAK EVER!!! Been called hurtful things, today my two closest IRL friends (also literally my last friends) left me for trying to get help the night before. And even mocked me. (One of them was my crush IRL). I'm also having many tech issues.

But to top it all off, apparently no one but me (And staff at my college) remembers that my girlfriend fucking died! What do i get in return as help? "Get over it!" "Grow up!" "Stop being such a god damn baby!"

Oh, and if that wasn't bad enough, it seems that either everyone is bysy 24/7 or some thing, beacuse no one is even bothering to talk to me.

You know my posts about needing someone to talk to and Rp with? You want to guess how many people responded?

10? No guess again? 5? Nope!

1! Thats right, 1. Uno.

At least this person is kind and nice. and I thank them for that (Although I kinda wish they were around more).

But anyway, why am I so hated? People tell me how nice and kind I am, even small things, some big things (Like staying up to 4 am to talk to a friend who needed my help emotionally even though I had an meeting and exam the next day). And what does said friend do when it comes around? Sleeps. Dosen't give a damn.

Now, i know we are only human, but seriously. Just something go right in my life. And I don;t mean a free peice of candy, I mean something for me to be truely happy.

But I'm starting to give up. I am a brony and a fan of MLP but I'm barely even excited for it anymore. So theonly thing I have left in the world is Vore. Thats it. My fetish.

Thats why i'm so Hell bent on talking and Rp ing with people on it. I suck at Rp and I know. But Just thanks. It makes my day a little better, if only for an hour.

So i'm sorry if im "annoying" or "Stupid" or "retarded" But there is your explanation.

I've been trying my damndest to fit in around here, from questions to trying jokes, to Rp. But even still, i feel left out.

So If you hate me for whatever reason, fine, be like that.

I dont care

Seriously.

If you think im a drama queen, well im not! This isn't some damn April fools POS. This is me adressing the site in the off chance...

I really don't care if anyone replies, heck most of my posts get only a few replies.

-Tyler

You can talk to me. I would gladly help you. Just send me a Pm if you want.

And I am also into MLP and vore, so we'll have at least that in common. ^^

As I said - I have no Skype/Whatsoever - and I have told You about the Reasons.

What did you mean when you said you tried to get help? If you tried looking for something like a counsellor, or whatever they might be called there (we call them child and youth workers here), I don't think you should let your so-called friends stop you. It would probably be a great first step in taking your life in a new direction. ^_^ And please don't take it as an insult or anything. Some people seem to think that talking to a councillor is something bad, or shameful somehow, but they're there to help you figure things out. Even if you decide not to seek councilling, I still think you should think about looking for ways to change your life around in addition to using RPs as an escape from it all (which isn't a bad thing - everyone needs an escape now and then). RPing probably isn't going to make a change in your life, which is what it sounds like you really need.

Also, this might sound harsh, but I think it's pretty negative of you to assume people are avoiding you because they dislike you. I can understand you thinking that way if that's how other people have treated you, but I hope you can also consider the idea that maybe that isn't the case. I can't speak for anyone else, but I've been kept pretty busy by my last few weeks of college work, and I haven't gotten time to RP with anyone, really, save for a post here and a PM there. So, try not to assume the worst, okay? Take it from someone who used to do just that. It's not a fun way to live.